1. |
Driver
02:47
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I’ll be somebody’s driver
And change my name to Tom
I’ll be older and wiser
Far from where I’m from
Maybe the only way out of this is
giving up on what I had planned
Maybe the only way out of this is
letting go of your hand
In my dream I was dying
calling for my dad
In my dream you were hiding me
why would you do that
Maybe the only way out of this is
letting go of what we had planned
Maybe the only way out you can see is
letting go of my hand
Don’t do that
Don’t do that
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2. |
Trouble
03:32
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The wind shakes the house
I should let it fall down
But I’ve held it till now
Why stop
Stop
The trees are on fire
so I don’t go outside
If I keep my eyes down
I don’t have to see it
I stopped looking up at the first sign of trouble
It still looks like asphalt even when it crumbles
I cut myself off from the sky
And I waited to die
Trouble
I’m in trouble
I’m in trouble
Trouble
When you wake up on land
You just eat what you can
and you wait for your chance to ascend again
But it won’t come as easy as it did once
Every time you drop it it gets heavier to lift your head
I stopped looking up at the first sign of trouble
It still looks like asphalt even when it crumbles
I cut myself off from the sky
and I waited to die
Trouble
I’m in trouble
I’m in trouble
Trouble
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3. |
Your Shit Friend
03:36
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Half asleep
I’m awoken suddenly
You say “there’s a cockroach in your bathroom
and my friend is freaking out so I’m gonna go soon”
Fuck off
She’s crashing on your couch
for more than a month
Come on
You just left for a week
now you’re back in my sheets but
Your shit friend
Is stealing you away again
Your shit friend
Is stealing you away again
You broke free
You listed what was wrong, said you told her to leave
Then you called me
With darkness in your eyes, her cigarette in your teeth
Come on
Change is a process
Celebrate progress
Love them through what they need to do but
I’m not patient
We’re amazing
And what I want to do, is spend my time with you, but
Your shit friend
Is stealing you away again
Your shit friend
Is stealing you away again
It’s always something lately
And I, I’m so tired
I’m so tired
I’m done lying
I’m so tired of
futile fighting
Nothing’s changed
You’re afraid
That’s okay
I’m scared too
Not of you
Well maybe a little
I just feel like
You’re at war and
I’m in the middle
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4. |
Migraine Season
05:38
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Pick me up in a loaner
I’ve been waiting
You say I look older
But I just stopped shaving
It’s migraine season
The wind blows every day
the waters freezing
I’ll jump in anyway
There is a coward in me
who sometimes takes over
I don’t recognize the deceit
until I come down
and you meet me there
you meet me there
you meet me there
Pick me up in a loaner
I’m elated
but your smile is more sober
you’ve been fading
It’s migraine season
the wind blows every day
the water’s freezing
and you’re up to your neck
having trouble breathing
but still trying to kick
There is a child in you
who sometimes takes over
a child of neglect and abuse
trying to calm down
I know you don’t know what to do
right now
I’ll meet you there
I’ll meet you there
I’ll meet you there
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5. |
King of My Castle
04:04
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Sitting in my pew I hear the monsters moving down Vermont
Sitting in my room I hear the sound
they swarm the shitty French restaurant
and suck their vapes
and watch me walk
so I stopped going down my own street
don’t you
wanna go
step into the light again
like when you were younger
Skin bones and hunger
I’m the king of my castle
king of my
I’m the king of my castle
king of my
no sleep dry air cold feet stay here
I’m the king of my castle
king of my
I should never have left the city lights
On the edge of aging
I feel a grey come on again
laying in the grass I see a cloud
I remember on that Westwood street
the older woman kissing me
and my lips like
dead fish
she promised she wouldn’t
try it again
she was lying
I miss my friend
I’m the king of my castle
king of my
I’m the king of my castle
king of my
no sleep dry air cold feet stay here
I’m the king of my castle
king of my
I should never have left the city lights
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6. |
Exile Spin
04:05
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I’m sick of this house
I wanna get out
Plaster my head
all over this town
Shouldn’t this hurt?
I never heard from her
Water kept falling
The world still turns
You’ll pop back in
When you need something
Maybe next time I won’t fall for it
Fear coming in
The exile spin
Nothing to do for it
I have to exist
I know what I want
I think that that’s hard
Too many roads to take
So I just sit in my yard
You’ll pop back in
When you need something
Maybe next time
I won’t let you in
I’ve been opening doors
That i locked
I've seen an old face
I wish I had not
You never let go
Of what you’ve caught
A piece of the whale
Stays stuck on the rod
When you come to mind
When i close my eyes
I say “no” out loud
And open them wide
Looking for light
But it’s always night
What if the world doesn’t want me back
I guess it’s alright
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7. |
Look How Pretty We Are
04:00
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I was only feet away
and I didn’t know what to say to ‘em
With their ribbons and bouquets
catch my reflection
I don’t belong
in a city that’s gone deaf
all that’s left is for the eyes
look around at all the spectacle
these people only talk in lies
so why do I want to fit the type
I know that life
It’s only advertising
Look how pretty we are
we are
I was only feet away
Until suddenly I was in the throng
And the air it had a taste
You all had dreams and they all went wrong
is that what it takes
to claim the California throne
Do you have to throw away
everything you’ve ever loved or known
why do I want to fit the type
I know that life
It’s only advertising
Look how pretty we are
we are
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8. |
Red Fruit
04:02
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you can’t stop the bullet
it’s already gone
it’s already love
you can’t unsay the word
and already through it
now it’s been so long
you’re reading about falling in love
and you realize you forgot
or got lost
can you get back to the source
did you fuck it up
i can’t feel you anymore
did we cut the cord
23 and it’s a chore
i don’t want to be here anymore
red fruit
dripping on your fingers
you’re feeding it to me
hmm
then you
left me
i don’t want to smile ‘cause it happened
i want it to keep happening
now we’re lost
can we get back to the source
did we fuck it up
i don’t feel you anymore
did we cut the cord
23 and it’s a bore
i don’t want to be here anymore
i don’t want to be here anymore
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9. |
The Ventura Exit
04:36
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Keychain one key lighter
Pull up the roots
I’ve never been a fighter
now I think I have to
taking down all our pictures
tape up the bag
the first night I woke up four times
on your side of the bed
fighting muscle memory
expecting a hand to be there when I reach out
taking the Ventura exit to your house
fighting
fighting
fighting
fighting myself
I don’t hate you but the more I think on it
you let me down
(You couldn’t see me
you stopped believing)
almost called you from the plane when I landed
fighting muscle memory
expecting a hand to be there when I reach out
taking the Ventura exit to your house
fighting
fighting
fighting
fighting myself
fighting
fighting
fighting
hi-ya
It’s still true what I told you
wherever I see love
maybe Kate and Leo
Maggie Cheung and Tony Leung
The tragic two from Moulin Rouge
I just see us
I miss you
I miss you
I wish I
was with you
I miss you
I miss you
I wish I
was with you
I miss you
I miss you
I wish I
was with you
I miss you
I miss you
I’ll always
forgive you
I miss you
I miss you
I wish I
was with you
I miss you
I miss you
I’ll never
forgive you
I miss you
I miss you
I wish I
was with you
I miss you
I miss you
I’ll never
forgive you
I miss you
I miss you
I wish I
was with you
I miss you
I miss you
I’ll always
forgive you
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Zander Hawley Los Angeles, California
Zander Hawley is a songwriter from Los Angeles. He likes sunrises and jumping in cold water with his clothes on.
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